Hello my rebels and not so rebels,
I hope you all had an amazing weekend and now into the week. Well a pretty big day recently passed on this journey of mine….
It’s my anniversary!… well it was
A year ago on Sunday I embarked on a new journey, a whole new relationship; one with my myself.
Full of self help, self care, self love and simply renewing my spirit.
I honestly didn’t realize how much work needed to be done on myself. Once you’ve lived a certain way of life, with a certain routine as long as I have it’s hard to see what you might need to work on or where the growth is missing from.
I look back and think “WOW V, you’ve come far!”
This time last year I was someone I didn’t recognize. I gained weight that I didn’t care to lose, I cut my hair shorter than I ever have and I lost my want to do things that I loved or even do things in general. That was already something I struggled with but this was beyond what should be considered as an acceptable way of life. At least not in my book.
In my last post I talked about how I was dealing with loss of passion of adding to my tattoo collection but I lost my passion for so much more. I didn’t want to coach anymore, I didn’t want to hang out with my friends, I forced myself to take my kids places that I knew I would be miserable at. Last year I was a woman who’s identity was completely loss.
Lost in being a mother of two, lost in being a girlfriend, lost in my job, just an overall question of who I was anymore.
I thank God for opening my eyes and making me realize that I needed to Grow.
I’ve taken a full year to get to know myself again. I decided to learn to embrace all of my good with my bad. Somehow I’ve taught myself to pay attention to what sits right with my spirit even if it makes me uneasy or uncomfortable.
That is something I’ve honestly never been good at, stepping out of my comfort zone.
I honestly am at a point where I yearn for stability and consistency (there’s that word again) in my life and my children’s life. I took pride in being a woman who follows my own path and I can’t blame anyone but myself for being complacent in where I was in life.
Getting back to God helped me in a HUGE way!
If I hadn’t had these two angels tell me, “Mom let’s go to church,” I would not have gone. I would have gone on with my life knowing that I needed Him in my life and avoiding it all together.
This journey has definitely taught me a few things that I thought I understood but realized I didn’t.
- Let Go and Let God.
- Karma is DEFINITELY real. What you put into the universe comes back at you in good and bad.
- Make some goals and complete them. Start small, each day make a set of goals and complete them.
As I write I’m reminding myself to follow my own advice.
- Trust your instincts.
- Don’t let fear, ego or pride get in your way.
This past year I’ve learned a lot, I’ve cried a lot, I’ve smiled and laughed more, I’ve let myself genuinely be me, flaws and all.
Happy Anniversary to me! Here’s to another year of Growth!
I was having a conversation with my daughter and the conversation came up about her posting videos publicly on the Tik Tok app which lead to questions about Snapchat and Instagram. Now me being the mom I am I IMMEDIATELY shut that down.
Come read about how that conversation went and my opinion on this whole social media world we live in.